A Dedication to Matthew

Yesterday I had a new perspective and a new outlook on life, and I had a new vision for this blog. Little did I know that time I created that post that something life changing would happen just less than a day later. I would love to say that this post is going to be upbeat and positive like they usually are, but sadly it won’t be, it’s about to get serious.

Today I woke up and went about with my day like any other day. I won’t go into detail, but long story short, one thing happened after another, and I just had a bad attitude about myself and felt self-pity.

Anyway my attitude completely changed when I heard a rumor that someone that I work with died. At first, I thought it was just a rumor, no way it could be true. So then my friend and I had done some digging and found out that the rumor was actually true. We found out that someone I work with had committed suicide.

His name was Matthew, he just turned 18, just graduated high school, and he had the rest of his life waiting for him. He was such a sweet, lovable, and sassy young man, with a beautiful soul, and I am still in shock that this has happened. I don’t know how he did it, and I don’t know why, but I can’t help but feeling like there was something I could have done. In all honesty, there was probably nothing I could have done, but I just wish that I could have reminded him that I would be there for him if he needed someone to talk to. I can’t help but feeling like I failed him.

I’m going to be honest, I don’t have a whole lot of experience with death, and I am very grateful for that. The last death I had that really hit me hard was my grandfather and that was almost 3 years ago, and it was kind of sudden, yet expected at the same time. I’ve heard of suicides happening in my area before, but it was never anyone I actually knew one on one.

Matthew, I wish you knew how loved you were and how much joy you brought into our lives, and just how it was a blessing to know who you were. There is only one of you, and you will never be replaced or forgotten. You will truly be missed by many. Fly high like a bird.

Rest In Peace Matthew.

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A New Perspective

When I first started this blog, I wanted to focus it solely on makeup, even though I’m self taught and I know everything I know from watching YouTube videos, and that’s how I really came up with the name, Beauty Amateur Hour. But here I am and a half later thinking of more than just makeup.

Yes, I would love to have makeup be the main focus of this blog, but my life isn’t just about makeup. It is definitely one of my hobbies, but there is more to life, and more beauty in life, than just makeup. There is beauty in makeup, beauty in fashion, beauty in entertainment, beauty in travel, beauty in you, beauty in me, beauty in literally everything, even the things that may not be even considered beautiful because life is beautiful.

I don’t even know how I got to this conclusion, I guess it just kind of came to me the more I typed this. And yes, life can be hard for anyone and everyone, but we have to make the best of it and once you are able to get over whatever hard time you are going through, I hope you can see the beauty in life and appreciate it.

I would still love to have beauty as a main topic in this blog, but I really want to post more than just makeup, I just need to stop being lazy and get back into posting daily again.

As much as I want to change the name of this blog, I think I’m going to keep it the way it is. However, it’s going to have a little more meaning than it did before. I think I discussed the beauty part enough already but as for the amateur hour, well I feel like I am an amateur at beauty, fashion, travel, life, just about anything. And that is what it means to me.

Sorry for this late night thought, it was just something I was thinking, and something I wanted to share and change, or expand about this blog. I will be continuing my 100 Days of Makeup on my Instagram, once I stop being lazy, and after that ends, I plan to include more than just makeup on Instagram. Also, I’m thinking about starting a Facebook page, any thoughts on that? Thank you for reading and thank you for always being here. I truly appreciate it!

An Update….

So it’s been a good month since I last posted. I hope everyone is doing well, I’ve been thinking about everything regarding my blog and social media, and I’ve come to a temporary decision that I think will be best for me.

So a few months ago, I became full timer at work, meaning that I’ll be working more, and I’ll have a limited availability to do other things outside of work. I’ve been trying to make it work and balance everything and I now realize that I can’t do it all.

I made it a goal for myself for this year to make sure I do better when it comes to my blog and social media and YouTube, and so far I haven’t. So here is the plan I have come up with.

I decided that I will be taking a temporary break from YouTube. It’s been really hard to find the time to film videos and edit with my busy and unpredictable schedule. Don’t worry, it’s only temporary, I’m hoping that I’ll be back in time for some fun Halloween tutorials.

But I think I started YouTube too soon, and as soon as I started it, that’s when my blog started going downhill. So now I will be mainly focusing on my blog and my Instagram.

Im still going strong with my 100 Days of Makeup Challenge on Instagram, so you should definitely check that out. I do have a really cool travel log I wanted to upload to my YouTube and I think I will still do that, I just won’t be making much more videos after that. However if you guys request I make a video such as a tutorial, review, anything like that, I would be more than happy to do that.

I hope you understand and I want to thank you all for still being here for me even when I’m not here. Thank you all so much!

Declutter With Me! Day 2

I kinda already failed on this declutter series, but I guess its something I’m going to have to do when I find the time. But anyway here is another installment in this series. on this shelf there was a little bit of trash along with some boxes, CDs and other random items with a little decor piece of Big Ben.

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On other shelves I found other boxes, and in these boxes, I usually keep my craft items, so I organized them into boxes. I separated them into scrapbooking in one, sharpies, glues and glitter, and ribbon and fabric crafts.

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Then I just put the boxes back into the shelf after organizing them and then put the decor piece back.

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That’s about it for this installment of Declutter With Me! Hopefully I can do better and get more on top of this. Thanks for reading!

1 Year Anniversary

I’m late by a few days, but my blog is now one year old! It doesn’t feel like it has been that long but here we are one year later. I feel like I have come a long way since I first started my blog the past year. I can’t believe that I have made it to almost 200 followers in just one year. To some, that might not be much, but to me it’s so many. To know that many people care about what I have to say or review, it means the world to me. I can’t wait to see what my blog will be another year from now. Thank you so much, I truly appreciate all the support!

NEW SERIES! Declutter With Me! Day 1

Alright, so we are almost done with week 2 of 2017 and so far, I haven’t even made any way to attempt to accomplish what I wanted to this year. So I am going to start with one of the things on my list of personal goals for 2017, and the one I am starting with is completely decluttering my room.

The method I am taking may make the process longer but it’ll make it easier for me since I have such a busy and unpredictable schedule. So I am going to be tackling one little section of my room everyday until I completely finish. I have a really bad habit of hoarding things that are just trash, and this will help me get rid of all of it.

In my room there are a lot of shelves, and no closet so most of this series, I will be tackling one shelf each day until I can move on to bigger things like my desk as well as under my desk and I will probably save my dresser for last, with taking a day for each drawer.

But I’m starting with one shelf in my room that isn’t used for much because it’s not within my reach, but I have to start somewhere. This shelf had a picture, a glass Eiffel Tower with candy in it, a little Easter Basket, an old calendar from last year and a coffee cup still in its box.

I did take out everything from the shelf and then just put the picture frame and Eiffel Tower back. The Easter basket I put on another shelf to tackle another day and I took the cup out of the box and into the kitchen where it belongs. I also put the calendar on another shelf because even though it’s useless, I really liked the pictures inside. I know that’s really stupid but I’m new at this, give me a break.

And this is what the shelf looks like now.

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That is it for this first installment of my declutter series. I know it doesn’t seem like much but if I do a little bit each day, then I know my room will get to be the way I want it to be. Thank you for reading!

Cure to a Cold?

Thank you all for understanding the lack of posts due to my cold. Luckily I tried something last night, and I’m pretty convinced that it worked. I first felt symptoms on New Year’s Eve, so I was actually sick for about 4 days. Yesterday I think was the worst of it, and it felt like it wasn’t going to get better. But I read somewhere online that if you put a slice of onion in your sock before you go to bed, its supposed to be helpful for your immune system, cleaning the blood, and help get rid of bad foot odor. Well it said that it would help with colds, and with being sick as a dog, I figured it wouldn’t hurt to try.

Before all I had was a pretty bad sore throat and cough, I was losing my voice, and an annoying stuffed nose. I put a slice of red onion in each sock, beneath the palms of my feet. I’m not going to lie, it felt absolutely weird, and I just couldn’t get used to or comfortable with the feeling of sliced onions in my socks.

But then I woke up this morning and I literally felt like a new person. I wouldn’t say it completely cured me, but it definitely helped open my sinuses and now I can breathe. Also it really helped with my sore throat and cough. I still have a little cough but it doesn’t hurt my chest like it did. And it seems like the mucus and phlegm is gone.

So overall, I’d say that this little experiment was a success. Again, I tried it on Day 4 into my cold, but next time I get sick, I’ll try sooner and see if it still works. But I would definitely recommend just trying this, as weird as it may sound and how it feels. The only thing I will complain about is that your room will smell like onion, but I think it’s worth not being sick. I hope you found this helpful, and get ready for future posts! I’m back! Thank you so much for reading!